Have you read much about attachment theory? It suggests an infant need only be attached to one primary caregiver, and it can be the dad. That you had a preferential and selective nature early on doesn't seem like such a negative thing to me, as it means you were already sensitively picking up and responding to cues from people, albeit it in a way that in some cases was not looked upon positively by the peoples. 
I suppose I think there's a big difference between an adult feeling rejected, and an infant actually rejecting a parent, which, how does anyone know? No one is able to interview the infant, as to the reason for its various behaviors and styles of interaction.. in the end only a parent's perception about what happened can be recorded in the annals.
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“We use our minds not to discover facts but to hide them. One of things the screen hides most effectively is the body, our own body, by which I mean, the ins and outs of it, its interiors. Like a veil thrown over the skin to secure its modesty, the screen partially removes from the mind the inner states of the body, those that constitute the flow of life as it wanders in the journey of each day.”
— Antonio R. Damasio, “The Feeling of What Happens: Body and Emotion in the Making of Consciousness” (p.28)
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