I do not know of any way to describe depression. As I tell people who ask, or who challenge me, "It's like explaining a sunset to someone who can't see. You can use so many adjectives, but unless you actually see the sunset you will never truly experience its glory." There are no words to accurately explain what depression feels like. The only thing I can say is the pain is worse than anything I have ever felt.

I struggled with my siblings, they didn't get it. They only saw what it was doing to me and blamed it on my therapist. After a 30 day hospitalization I allowed them to talk with my pdoc. Now they understand what it means to have depression, but hopefully they will never know what it feels like.

Mental health is just beginning to be talked about. It's only because the government mandated it that insurers now need to cover mental health as they do any illness. It took the death of a well loved man for people to think "maybe there's something more to this mental health issue."

Some day ...