Being bullied all throughout middle school, and a lot of it being in front of teachers who did nothing about it, made me grow up feeling totally helpless. I grew up thinking there was no help for me, and so I never expressed concern for myself to my parents or anyone else. I have a hard time asking for help because I don't believe there is help out there for me. So a lot of my suffering goes unnoticed and under-exaggerated. In the present, I do tell my husband about stuff, but that is pretty much it. I have a hard time going to a doctor. I have learned to not depend on other people to help me because I believe they just do not care, just as my teachers did not care about my bullying. I have grown up calloused to what other people think of me, and just assume that they think the worst. I feel constantly judged and belittled. I feel subhuman and that there is something wrong with me. Bullying has really taken its toll on me.