My husband and I both look . Just looking. I notice beautiful women and men.

I doubt you will ever find a man that will not look at anyone ever ! That would never happen unless your boyfriend is kept in a basement and never let out.

So really this situation does fall into your lap.. Seeking some therapy to help build up your self esteem is a wonderful thing to do.. Your investing time on becoming the best you that you can be.

I wish you luck