Leah,
Wow....that made me think. Thank you. She did try to get me to lay down and rest for awhile. I've not been sleeping well, and she could tell I was just exhausted while I was there. I said "I'm fine," and remained sitting. I didn't want to lay down...not there.... perhaps vulnerable, I don't know. I really do feel safe there though, so not sure that's it. She ended up laying a blanket over me, telling me to just relax for awhile. I was there, but I wasn't. Just stared out the window....but couldn't see anything because my eyes were full of tears. THIS is why I don't want to cry in therapy. I shut myself down.

My T did recognize it, yes. She brought it to my attention (or what little I had). I don't think she could have stopped it this time.... this was the first time, so perhaps now she knows what to watch for. I don't know. I myself don't know what happened. We were talking, then I was crying, then I was just done. Looked out the window or sat there with my eyes closed. I was still in a bit of a fog driving home.....

I have something going on this weekend that has my anxiety level up a bit, it will be a happy, but emotional time....and I know that contributed to all of this. I see my T twice a week and see her again on Monday....we'll see what happens then. Interesting how just at my last session she told me I was such a pleasure to work with. Then, this session, I made things difficult. I even got snotty with her a couple times...that's just not me.