I love the way you put things, Alison!

You are right - part of the issue is overthinking things. I spent a good part of this week trying to sort out whether I wanted to go to a food festival in a town four hours away or if I would be better off attending a plant workshop in a town about an hour away. What often happens in situations like this is that I wind up not being able to decide one way or another, so I do neither. In this case I registered for the class that's closer.

There's some kind of fear of commitment in here also - that if I make a decision now, something better will come up and I won't be able to do that thing.

But really, because I have hesitated to make decisions about relatively small things, I wind up missing out on other stuff because I finally need to take care of X, just as the opportunity for Y comes along.

I have basically hesitated to schedule my whole summer and now summer is almost gone - and I have little to show for it.

Two years ago I left my job to start a business. I still haven't started it. I've started about a half dozen projects and abandoned each one. Occasionally I pick one up again - but I am getting to the point where I will need to either generate an income or find a job within the next 12 months -- so I am feeling fairly disgusted with how I have spent my time, sort of wallowing in indecision.

And, yes, motivation is a big problem. Sometimes I have had to abandon nearly complete projects because I reach a point where an initial assumption was incorrect and continuing seems pointless. Sometimes that feeling is accurate, sometimes it's probably just an excuse.

Thank you for your suggestions -- I do think that just picking any choice and scheduling some things would be helpful to me right now!