Hi Pianogirlplays, I am so sorry your family puts you through this. Sounds like no consideration on their part. Remember the only thing we have control over is us, not them or the situation. Please try to take care of yourself and don't be so hard on you. Just because their actions have hurt you doesn't mean you have to hurt you! And why do you keep doing it when it hurts so much? Because you, like me try to believe people can change and things will be different, but somehow they never do. Please again I say...Take care of you! You matter!