If i am not in the medical field...i will not be loved....(thank god i actually like studying medicine)

If i talk...i will not be loved....

If i

what use is this.....

when i wanted (still do) want to be writer my parents said i was lazy and useless...
now i want to be an RN ....they decided to tell me how proud they are of me....how much they love me...
they BEG me to buy me things....things i know they will eventually take back
meh...

there is no such thing as unconditional love.....if you arent what people want you to be...if you dont act like they want you to

Dear God....ever be in the middle of a freaking....tired rant (its 3 am right now) and feel so disgusted with yourself that you cant take it....i mean wow...can i be anymore of a loser than i already am???