Timeforhelp sorry you are feeling like no one is listening to you, family can be like that. Too busy with their own stuff. Most people do not understand depression especially family. Please don't roll over you are worth the fight! Try and think of the good, fun things you like to do, you can be there again. Pull yourself out of this hole. Life can be good and it will be. Sometimes I don't think it is how we FEEL that needs fixing. It is how we THINK about people and things that needs to be fixed and it is possible for you to do that, I know. I am glad you posted and even though you don't want to use those numbers you got, now is the time to use them. It is your depression telling you not to use them. I hope this helps just a bit and remember you can post or PM me anytime.