Sometimes relationships, doing things I like or distractions fill it but it is always there. I feel hollow and alone a lot. Always on the verge of tears and one trigger away from depression.

I don't know how to treat this emptiness. When I feel abandoned or threatened with the possibility of losing whatever is temporarily filling the void I lash out and push it or him/her away before it can leave me.

Right now I feel it because my relationship is in the trash and I have no job to distract me from my feelings. I also just moved states and neither of my parents is emotionally available ( or ever has been) and I don't trust any close friends.

Has anyone else experienced this emptiness inside? It worries me because sometimes it is so bad that I think I would be better off not living.