I was hospitalized for deep depression yesterday and if I don't improve with med changes over the next few days it has been suggested I have ECT again. I'm confused as I had ECT in June and it seemed to work really well and now I'm back in the darkness. I thought ECT was supposed to last longer than that. I'm full of despair and hopelessness and believe I will never get better. This is making me more suicidal, like escape from hospital suicidal. It is truly awful. I cannot see any way out now the ECT only gave me a decent two months. What else is there for me to hope for. I have had a lot of treatment and always end up back here.