Ha! Never post at 2 am when full of emotion & sleepy. How very dramatic and full of typos. (And really? Should I care about that when the gist of it is misery and fear?)

I can't edit or delete. He'd be pissed if he read it.
I'm not that worried he'll read it because he never tries to understand bipolar.

Anyway I knew he was like this before getting back with him but he was nicer, and I thought the problem was me. I read a familiar post by another PC member and agreed nothing is worth the abuse. Not her fault.

But if I didn't keep making stupid mistakes I sometimes think it is my fault. Yet is it? Like the time I thought he was gaming & turned on the bedroom light. Woke him up & he flipped the bed, and all the furniture in the living room?

He is so good to the kids & they are close enough to legal age that if I hang on 3 more months I won't have to worry about them. (I am afraid only for providing for the kids, not ever him hurting them).

Classic. It does not get better, even if I have in so many ways. Why can't he see that?