I never thought I'd go back. 8 years later I did. Sigh. My need to be loved & cared for overruled reason. He does put up with a lot but when does that become so dangerous and potentially deadly.

I wonder if I think, and it's perpetuated, who would ever want me? I've been through shelters (safe but difficult). Plus he found out where I was. Arrogance had him delivering pizza there in my name so he let me know he knew where I was.

I think I attract the unhealthy. Like magnet for sick plus sick. Thanks for listening. I know it's not going to get better, even if I tow the line.