*****warning ***** This isn't a thread for others to dump their stuff and prejudices. I'm wanting genuine contributions.

Right, T suggested some years back she could send me a card when she's away to help me with staying connected.

A couple of times over the past years she's not sent one (later became photo by email not card) and I've felt so hurt.
Alas I spend the break enticipating the communication from her. To me it means she's remembered me, I'm not so abandoned.
On the times she forgot I've gone back to session after the break playing hard to get. Unable to tell her how hurt I feel and how stupid for putting so much into wanting her correspondence.
Eventually I've spat it out, she apologises saying she simply forgot.
I've by my actions told her how much I need her not to forget. I've said in the past that I wish she had discussed it with me before the break if she's decided she doesn't want to do it anymore. She never really answers thst..
So I'm back in this position again.
I'm angry, she knows what this means to me, surely she could say "look I do tend to forget so it would be best to stop altogether", but no., it's like if she remembers I'm lucky, if she doesn't well, I've got to swallow it..
I'm supposed to go back Monday after a 3 week break but I'm actually away next week (she knows this) and I don't know whether to email her telling her how I feel (yet again) and await her apology if I'm lucky or excuse. Don't really want apologies, Or when I come back, not turn up to session, wanting my withdrawal to speak loud.. I dunno

Thoughts??? (not judgements on what's right or wrong)