I wonder if we aren't all somewhat used to, and comfortable with, the chaos we've lived with, so that it feels normal and better than stability and "doing what is good" for us? So we throw ourselves off a bit on purpose sometimes? This has probably been discussed here before -- I'm fairly new. A wee bit of self sabotage feels good every now and then, at least to me.

Also, who wants to do what they're told all the time? Definitely not me, and I'm more than old enough to know better.

Shorter answer: yes. I definitely do this sometimes. I think we should try our best to minimize this. Didn't mean to sound as if I'm advocating for it.