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Originally Posted by Freewilled
I have this problem. I just had a memory I shared in therapy that had broadened - like a new part came back - and I actually had access to some feelings with it. This is not the norm for me.....I actually cried in therapy for the first time after over a year and a half. But the next week it was like it didn't really happen. Like I made it up. I feel ashamed even at the consideration of that because I know I didn't make it up. I'm pissed that I can't access the feelings again. It feels WORSE to be disconnected from them, no matter how horrible it felt. I can't stand the disconnection.
Anyone else experience anything like this? If so, is there a trick to staying connected that I'm missing?
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usually when parts share a memory that memory does not fade away.. so Im wondering if maybe some of your meds (if you are on any) may be interfering with your memory process. Sometimes meds can cause memory problems.
here where I live and work inability to feel and express feelings/emotions either present moment or for the past or for memories is called lack of affect. it happens with normal things and can also happen with all mental and physical health problems. some things that can cause this is stress, PTSD, Depression, Anxiety....
my point it its quite common for survivors of traumatic events to have lack of feelings for their self, their memories, their emotions...
suggestions sometimes not working so hard to gain memories will make the memories come forth at a more natural rate, sometimes taking time to do nice things for yourself can make a person relax mentally to the point where the lack of affect barriers give way to being able to feel and express a full range of emotions again and have those memories that seem to have faded away again.