Warning: this will likely be a long rant about my sad, miserable, lonely life. I'm sick of people telling me lies to my face every day of my life, I'm sick of being an emotional wreck every day. I'm sick of my parents and therapist telling me I'm worth it when I'm not, I'm sick of waiting year after year for something good to happen to me. I'm sick of being lonely, bitter, jealous, sad, angry, tired, irritable, and rejected. The facts don't lie, I'm not worth it.

I'm sick of doing things every day that don't help me or make me feel better or have peace of mind. "You are worth it, you are lovable and can meet someone you like." Just shut up, please, I've heard enough of your bulls*** lies. Also, stop throwing seventy different pills in my face that are obviously doing nothing, stop telling me to exercise, get better sleep, I've done it for three weeks straight and I still feel awful and depressed. Stop telling me if I try things can work out, because that's nonsense. If the world was like that, it would be fair but it isn't. Stop telling me I'll be fine. I'm just genetic garbage so stop trying to cheer me up or talk me out of it. I'm ugly, untalented, stupid, worthless, unlovable, undesirable, and have no overall worth. And please please stop lying about personality, please. Looks are 90% of finding dates or relationships, I don't care how good your personality is, if your grotesque looking, no one will want to be with you and you will never find someone you really want to be with, period. So with that, I guess I'll just give up on life and wait for my promised day.