Wow! Are you my conscience? Because much of what you said is the same things I rehearse over & over again about myself! But you know, people aren't the only ones who "lie" to us. Sometimes we lie to ourselves by believing the very worst of ourselves, and never even recognize those lies to be anything but the truth! All things negative will deceive us into believing that all is lost & helpless. Sometimes it helps me to look at depression, & sadness, & heartache & despair, and say YOU are the lie! I DON'T have to accept you! I CAN overcome this! I get MAD at whatever is holding me back & wage war against it! And I fight hard to create my own Truth. I hope you will do the same!