Yeah I know you're right. I don't think I want validation though. I'm pretty accomplished academically and professionally and I tend to let that determine a lot about how I see myself - though that's not altogether healthy either. The emptiness feels like...idk, it's hard to explain. I don't tend to want validation though. I get a lot of that from ppl because I made success my drug of choice so ppl think I lead a perfect life. I do know you're right about the remedy being inside me or coming from me. Not sure how to get there.