I have taken to cursing my T out and telling him which objects I want to throw at him. He encourages this.

I know this may sound strange, but when I get mad, I get mad; however, when it comes to him, I have been afraid to let it out.

If I am angry with him during the week, I write a free association journal. It normally starts out cursing him out and calling him every name in the book, then describing the ways in which he made me angry.

I recently read one to him for the 1st time. It was incredibly difficult, liberating, terrifying, and safe all at the same time.