Something strange started happening to me when I was 14. It was like an emptiness and I felt like things stopped registering with me and things went right thru me. I could not relate to friends and family anymore, I didn't feel enjoyment anymore and I had no idea why and I didn't know what was happening to me. I made a complete 180 degree turn between 13 and 14 and I can't explain it. At 13 I was active, focused and enthusiastic and at 14 I was confused, withdrawn and and distant. Over the last year I found out that it was a depersonalized dissociative disorder that started at 14 (I've also had a mood disorder that started shortly after that and the mood disorder is extremely prevalent in 1/4 of my family). I still have had very little relief for all of this over the past 36 years after years of treatment and hospitalizations, etc. I can't really pinpoint the dissociation to any event except one thing which took place at 14 and it was really very minor so I'm at a loss. I discussed the dissociation with my PDOC and he didn't say much about it except that he knew 3-4 PDOCs who specialized in dissociative disorders and that the PDOCs usually knew more about the patients than the patients knew about themselves.