Thank you to everyone!! It is hard and I know I can do it. I just need the support to get through it. I found a friend that I could contact today and we talk for almost four hours. It helped more then I can ever express. The hard part is now at 12am. I took my meds and I'm getting tired but I'm afraid of the Flashbacks. I was given some new coping skills for tonight and I hope if I wake up from one of my night Terrors, that they will work. Oh and I tried to reach out to one of the numbers when I was wanting to cut, but they only made me feel worse. They kept telling me why I could I not do this on my own. Why did I feel I needed help from the hospital again? I do not need to be judged when I'm reaching out for help because that only makes the thoughts stronger. I basically hung up on them. Glad I was not so far down that I could not reach out again. That is why it is so important for the crisis lines to be supportive. I wonder how many suicides happen because they do not feel supported but feel more Judgement??