Not sure if this is the right place for this; apologies if so, I don't know where to put it.

I'm so upset! I'm so frustrated! Everything feels wrong and rotten and bitter and empty. Being awake for barely six hours feels like I ran an emotional marathon even though next to nothing happened. I don't know what to do. I don't know what I am. I feel angry and pent up and restless I am way too small the world is way too small the world is WRONG, I don't belong here, I don't belong here!!! There is not future for me because THIS IS NOT MY PLACE, everything is so small and petty and lacking in color and I don't know what's wrong with me I dont know why I feel bad but these feelings are so intense and I don't know where they came from or what they are

I want to bond with people, I want to belong with people and love them and let them love me but people seem so smalll and there's this great caving hole in my heart that wants to devour and destroy everything, I can't find anything in common with people I have no "interests" i have no "passions" my only passion is that I want to be not alone, I want to be alone, I want to not hurt but I can't stop hurting and I don't know why. What's wrong with me? Why can't I fit i with other people? I feel so stupid and broken and my pieces don't fit right, I have nothing to say to strangers to make friends with them and the friends I do have... I can't constantly burden them with all the dread I feel, but what do I do when I have nothing else to talk about? What do I do when all I want is to be a soft warm animal and curl somewhere warm and not be afraid. What's wrong with me? Why can't I stop being scared of other people? Why can't I get better? Why can't I tear apart this universe and find a better one?