Hi all,

I have my T first thing tomorrow(it is late Sunday afternoon here) for an extra session, and can not stop worrying and thinking about it.

As some will remember, 2 weeks ago I sent T a list of past trauma, lots never talked about before to anyone, and had a bit of a melt down afterwards over fear of what he will think. I've seen him once since then but was in a really bad state after a very difficult(for me) situation at university, so I spent the entire appointment sobbing and overwhelmed and spacing out.

I know we need to touch on my fears around THE LIST. I am really anxious about his thoughts about me now...and feeling so embarrassed after the last session last week.

I'd really appreciate some support, pocket riders and also ideas on how to talk to him about him maybe thinking I'm disgusting and bad and all of those other adjectives now that he has seen the list, please.