Hello everyone. Been diagnosed bipolar and on meds for two years now. I started seroquel200mg about two months ago. Knocks me out cold. To combat the grogginess at work, I've been taking caffeine pills for the past two weeks. Years ago I took mini thins and later ripped fuel (the one with ephedra in it). This kept me wired continuously. Looking back, I was definitely manic. Hyper sexual and basically thought I was destined for greatness.

Fast forward 10-15yrs, I'm married, have a similar job but turns out I wasn't destined for greatness. I know now it was an illusion. I'm just a normal guy.

Here's my dilemma. The caffeine pills have triggered hypo mania. Haven't been manic since February 2012. I didn't take my seroquel yesterday, just my Prozac40mg. I tried to stay up all day (I work nights) but I crashed at 2pm.

I woke up with dilated pupils. Took two more caffeine pills and three sudafed. I've missed the mania so much. Meds have mostly kept me so flat.

Just wanted to reach out to others for some support. I know I'm playing with fire, but I can't help myself. I have an addictive disposition. I wouldn't say I'm actually addicted to anything, but I have my moments. My father is a long time alcoholic. He actually lost his sight in his right eye from constricted blood vessels back in November 2008.

I guess I'm starting to ramble, but I'm eager to talk. I hope someone out there can relate.