Hi again, its been a few since I posted. I did update my post about going to my therapist, saying it was a "great" visit.

Anyway on a side note I've been loosing hope. When my depression first hit I focused on family, trying to get what little "support" they ended up giving to me. After recognizing that that wasn't good for me I decided to see a therapist. Fast forward to now, I've tried family,therapy,meds,friends, whats left?

I said my last session was good, which it was but alot of doubt has been coming to mind after reading some posts on here. Some inwhich are what I've been fearful of, the therapist really not caring. I find most docs in generally NOW DAYS could give 2 Sh*** about their pateints, trust me I know I've lost about every type of family member possible.

Enough with the rants about pdcos and therapists. I'm 17 full of life I've got tons of years to go...or do I? Stress has been said to age you, make you physically and mentally wore out.......I agree completely. Being 17 you get told don't worry about love, or anything it'll come intime. I need a romance to come and stay, I'm too young tho, but after my experiences I feel thats all I have to look forward to......and whats scary is I'm suicdal , what if I never make that romance?

I'm so sorry everyone for being angry in my posts.............................