I feel better now. There are two stressors. One is dealing with the next door neighbor for help for my mother. She wants more money. She gets right now $25 per hour for her help. She is greedy. This places me in a vulnerable position who has been a good freind of the family, whose help I have needed in the past Another is thinking I damaged an expensive, valued item that I purchased recently. I think this had sent me over edge I have been at for awhile. Silly. But true.