Cant tell if my posts are posting... they're not showing up...

You guys are amazing. I will reply to this all properly later tonight. I was worried to come back on... I don't know why. I just didn't know what to expect from you all. But i can see now that you're all such strong, loving people. You've brought me comfort with the time you've all taken to reply to me. I am trying to keep going. I can see the good happening to me every do often, but my insecurities and low self esteem block it out and make it harder for me to maintain my moral.

Anyway i will respond properly tonight when I've got some time... but thank you all so very much!! Your comfort is so deeply appreciated!!!

seriously... Thank you all!