exactly and mania is what i would like to avoid. the middle ground looks so enticing and ive read about people with BP who actually live there. but it took sacrifice to get there. lifestyle changes and dedication.
im just afraid im going to do all the effort and still be miserable

today im feeling like its something i really do want
i really would like to remain on a medication regimen and adjust my lifestyle and see if i can get to that elusive middle ground called stability.
tomorrow that could change