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Old Sep 14, 2014, 05:56 AM
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Originally Posted by Velouria View Post
I started Topamax 7 days ago and it seems to be kicking in. Prior to that I was very up. I miss it. I was a machine at my job. In the world itself, I felt like I had a whip in my hand and could dominate everything (I'm submissive by nature). I felt impervious, invulnerable.

That's not my norm, although I'm good at my job. I miss it all. I don't want it to go away, even though it would have eventually. But I don't want it to never come back.

How do you deal with losing that?
I love the highs like everyone as well. I've learned to be happy being depressed if that makes sense. Since after we've had the euporic mania, there's no middle, everything else is a low. Just enjoy it while it lasts, then through time you'll learn to be content without them. At least that's what I've done. Best of luck!