Pinksoil, Im pleased you feel more conected to T by reading. I often wonder what I could do that would help.

I'm not sure if you husbands wish that you could love him all the time is actually achievable. Living with someone isnt always "perfect" there are times I dont even like my husband and I'm sure he feels that way too. I always hold a deep level of respect for him but hope he is doing what he needs to do to take care of himself also so he isn't looking for me to "Love" him "all" the time.

I think it would be like little house on the parire if that was the case?? and little house on the Parie this AIN'T LOL