Woke up feeling blah. Got into a whirlwind of messed up thinking last night, that I couldn't seem to get myself out of. As I was talking to my girlfriend, sounding like a madwoman, I had an out-of-body experience, and was watching myself, thinking, "man, this is messed up." But I couldn't unwind myself.

I'm still feeling a bit wound up this morning. Got up at 4am. Anxious about my depression. Ramping up.