Thanks all!

See the thing is, technically I only have bipolar components, according to my doctors. I forget or am reluctant to tell them things. So in my mind I'm thinking I can get away with not being on the mood stabilizer.

And then I think about how I blew through 3/4 of my savings this summer. And I'm supposed to be saving up to move in with my boyfriend. So I'm trying to look at the negatives, but the euphoria is a very strong contender.

My therapist thinks I overspend when I'm depressed to make myself feel better. Or she'll say I'm reluctant to move out. But that's not it. I couldn't control myself. And I wasn't depressed. I shop less when I'm depressed.

Anyway, I think first I really need to start being more open with my doctors. But I am also really going to miss that feeling.