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Originally Posted by JustShakey
I'm sorry Rainbow 
Do talk to your T about being worried about her, maybe you're right that something is wrong, but you may be projecting too. Talking about it will help. Maybe she's just worried about *you*. And I would tell her about your fears about hurting her about her size.
FWIW, people tend to think that I'm too thin too, but I'm not, it's just how I carry my weight (on my legs, while my ribs and collarbone stick out  ). I'm weighed regularly because of my meds and it's never been a problem. |
Thank you, JustShakey. The thing is I DID hurt her by something I once said in a phone message to her about her being thin. She told me it hurt her, and I still feel bad about it because what I said was cruel. I could have said it differently. Maybe now that I want to bring it up because I need to be sure she is healthy, it is acceptable. I learned my lesson before that, just because she is my T, and I pay her to listen to me, does not mean I have the right to say something horrible to her, about her. She has feelings too, and sometimes I've forgotten that I can affect her too.
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Originally Posted by likelife
Rainbow, I haven't been around for a long time, and am just catching up. I'm so, so sorry to hear about your husband. I can't imagine how jarring it must have been to get the news.
Your worry is an old one. I say that not to diminish it, but to remind you that your T has been there to support you for a long time. She will be there for you. She is there for you. Hugs.
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Thanks, lifelike. Yes, my H's illness is quite a shock. I know my T has been with me over 4 years, and has been thin all of that time. She hardly ever gets sick, either. What worries me is that, while younger than I am, she's getting to the age where she could also get cancer. It scares me.
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Originally Posted by peaches100
((((((Rainbow))))))
I was wondering how your therapy went. I'm sorry you had a hard time concentrating and asking for what you need. I know it's very hard for you to express your emotions in person with your t. I'm glad you did finally hold her hand at the end of your session though.
Try not to take on the worry about your t's thinness. She has always been thin. Most likely, she is not sick. It's possible that she may have lost some weight due to the recent of divorcing not that long ago. Don't worry about losing her right now. She is right there with you, both on your session day, and between sessions she lives in your heart. Draw on that strength and caring!
Remember too that you have many people who care about you here, as well as in your 3D life. You won't be alone with this. You're going to be OK. We'll help any way we can.
Peaches |
Thank you, Peaches. I wish I could have told my T more of what I felt. I think it's because I'm still afraid to cry with her. I feel very close to her, but I don't cry with anyone. I was holding back. You're right that she is probably not sick but that's how my mind works. There could be a lot of reasons she had to leave on time for an appointment, not necessarily even a drs. appointment. It's an example of how my mind jumps immediately to the negative! Still, I sensed that she was getting a divorce. I am very attuned to her; she told me that after I guessed about her divorce.
I'm trying not to take advantage of T's willingness to respond to my emails. I emailed her last Tuesday after the session, and once more just to send a photo of a painting I'm working on. She emailed me back once. There's nothing new to report about my H, so no reason to email her except to connect, and that's "old stuff".