Yearning for a family and network of close people is apart of the human nature....we are very social beings and without we feel completely lost. I know the feeling, the lack of closeness. It is a dark and lonely place. I did eventually get the family I wanted on my own, but it still exceeds problems. It doesn't make all the loneliness go away because there's apart of myself I am missing as well...and still it's incredibly lonely. There is a sense of peace on can gain from ones self through acceptance and so on....

I am sorry you feel that way and I hope you get whatever it is you seek soon.