So i was driving home from work. Think how sad my life is. The only that breaks up my day is going to my therapists and that is my high light of the week. Yes i do work it should be a 40hr a week job and for the last 5months it's been an 70 hour job. This and i don't get sleep when i an home makes jill a having unhappy person. It's been over 2 weeks since i had hurt myself and a week since i had a suicidal throught. But driving home today i really wanted to pull my car over and burnmy leg. i started feeling completely overwhelmed. and started to feel like i was going to throw up at work or faint. i had to leave. so is this all i have in my life? i have despair in my soul
However i did survivor the anniversary of my heart and soul got ripped out of me. My friend, my hushand, my soul fell out of love with me and seeing another woman. PS also got her pregnant. they were talking marriage. This whole time i was caring for our sick 3 year old son. He called me at work to let me he wanted to separate. i got so drink and lost track of day and night i thought i was late for job so i jumped in my car and drive for 40 miles til i discovered it was 8:30 @night. The next day i just wanted to kill myself and wawawent looking for help.