Hi lonewolf. Welcome to the community. Depression is a cruel illness. It will tell you that you are a failure. You are not a failure. Yes, when we suffer depression we will have distorted thinking, but we can't give up. I would try doing small, little things. And when you set a small tiny goal, and accomplish that little tiny goal, give yourself a pat on the back and some sort of reward. Then set a slightly bigger goal and move forward. Best wishes.