Side blinded, me too. I feel better just praying to a higher power-can I say that here-not breaking religion rules??for me, it helps me to make sense of my life, if I feel there is a reason behind things happening...and what I will take from it to help me in future.example, I had awful post partum depression, at time thought nothing could be worse. Now many yrs later, I am betr able to deal with event causing depression now and how to monitor my moods.