awwww (((buggie))))
Don't you realize that statements and feelings like this :Yes I'm having a pity party right now but gosh darn I think I deserve it. only make you feel worse?
Pity parties just aren't what they're cracked up to be. A few moments of reflection, yeah, but not a whole party.
We all have our crosses to bear. Our life seems more difficult when what it is is NOT what we expected.

Things rarely turn out just the way we wanted (and sometimes that is such a good thing
There are other ways to find enjoyment. But, imo, it includes putting aside what might have been.
Contentment is not a given, we have to work at it.