Apparently no one else has any ideas. I'm truly lost and ready to give up. Thinking about how my kids would do without me. Are they better off with a mom who can't be happy or a mom who simply isn't there? My mom was a MESS, so I'm on the fence about this. I don't want to spend 30 years in a slow tailspin like she did and I feel like that's exactly where I'm headed. I'm living for my kids. Period. And I'm feeling more and more like that's not good enough.