I often find myself thinking I'm on my own island. So isolated that it's not even really feeling lonely, just recognizing that there's no place that I belong. I don't 'fit' anywhere.

Whether I'm depressed, manic, or something inbetween I am socially displaced anywhere I go. It's one of the reasons my suicidal ideation is so persistent.

It's slowly wearing me down and I believe eventually the conditions which would compell me to act on these thoughts will arise. I wonder what I can do to prevent that, how I might arrive at a different destination. Sadly, there's no one I can talk to who has any idea how to help in that pursuit. My own little island...