Hello, I am 19 years old and have been diagnosed with bipolar(was hopitalized last month) and I like to do drugs alot. I already smoke a massive amount of marijuana and I was getting my old doctor to give me adderall, klonipin, xanax, antidepressants, and other stimulants which is what eventually led to my hospitalization. Before that, I binge drank alot and did a few psychedelics. I am on Trileptal and hydroxyzine pamoate right now, my new psychiatrist gives me heavy drugs like latuda and zyprexa but I don't take them because It makes feel like a zombie and I would rather self medicate. I also am back in therapy. I am honestly probably going to start drinking again soon and maybe do some more psychedelics. My question is how do I stop? All of my friends do the same things I do and encourage me, and my parents don't care, in fact my dad is a huge stoner and my mom is growing weed in the backyard and lets me do anything I want. I don't have the motivation or willpower to stay sober for more than a day, the doctors at the hospital told me to not to do drugs when I got out but that didn't last very long, I feel trapped and don't know what to do.