But what is the plan you have now?

Different attitude is not about "positive thoughts" btw. That is ****ing Hallmark (TM) not mindfulness. Mindfulness is about realistic view of self and others. A.k.a. there is thread about what to say if somebody asks you why are you depressed and people are... suggesting to be snarky and talk about chemical imbalances. As if... you are automatically expecting others mean the worst by this question, not mere concern. All our the obsession about "fault". Where does it come from?

Maybe it's the cultural difference, because me and people around me never really obsessed about "fault" when we left kindergarden (asides of half-jokingly blaming things on the government). Maybe because I come from nation when complaining is normal and smiling for no reason is not.......... I take the questions about "why are you depressed?" as greenlight to world-woe rants (and they help often.... probably more than if i blamed my brain).

In fact Buddhism says suffering is part of life.

Anyways, what I am trying to say............... it's not between "either I have chemical imbalance or it's my fault". which would mean, it totally is our fault, because the chemical imbalance seems to be definitelly in trash, about to be taken to the landfill of psychiatry.