I've been off my antidepressant for about six weeks, and it has been sheer hell. It wasn't my choice to quit, although I was tired of relying on meds. My insurance company messed stuff up, and I was forced off cold turkey. But then when everything finally got straightened out, I decided to stay off the med because I'd already been through so much with the withdrawal.

But I'm tired of waking up nauseous and jittery, feeling lost and hopeless. I keep thinking it's going to get better, but maybe it isn't. Just the idea of being on meds again depresses me. The discontinuation syndrome from Cymbalta is crushing, and I can't tell if I'm in rebound depression or just being steamrolled by the withdrawal. So tired of feeling like it's the end of the world all the time.