I feel the same way. I hate bothering my T. I imagine he reads my text and thinks "oh God, now I have to respond to this person again, ugh..." In general I feel like a burden on everyone, asking for any favor, asking for any communication in return. I worry if I say too much he will hate me and not want to talk to me anymore... not "encourage" me. I also think I have some major issues. So, I try to push past it and just cut myself some slack here and there.