Oh I am so sorry you are struggling like this, it is never good to stop a medication like that cold turkey. Your brain is used to having these chemicals in it everyday and often a medication can make the brains natural way of producing these chemicals very weak so it can be even worse then when a person started on a medication. It is always recommended that medications be ended "gradually".

You should talk about this challenge with a professional and not be struggling like this on your own, especially since you are struggling the way you have discribed.