People who have children and are married can be lonely too. Being that way, lonely ness is even worse for them. Forget that reason for finding well being.

You are very intelligent, and that is one reason why your living alone. Stop being hard on yourself. What happened during your childhood does not apply for today.

In reality, you are comfortable living alone. Go for it, and buy a house for yourself and take care of yourself. You just might find, someone special may want to move in with you, if you do.