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Originally Posted by Curiosity77
My cat is in the hospital, and the prognosis isn't good. Probably 3 months, maybe up to 2 years. Kidney and cardiac disease, and she's lost a kg since last year. She's 16, and i've had her since she was 5 weeks old. She's my best friend, and has been with me through some very dark times. There were times when i would have killed myself, except i didn't want to leave her alone. So she has literally saved my life. Now i'm home by myself, and she is at the vet, and i'm crying. I don't know what to do with these feelings. I am having thoughts of self harm, which i haven't had in years. I don't think i will act on the thoughts though. I actually just took a saphris, which i usually hate, because i'm hoping it will put me to sleep. I don't know if i should restart all my meds to help me cope with my cat being sick, i don't want to, but i might need to. I'm just so sad.
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I have 5 cats and help care for hundreds in our program. I know how much love they can give and how much you love them back. 16 is getting up there in years for a cat and it sounds like she's had a pretty good life with you. You might have to accept that her time is coming
You're taking the best care of her that you can, I'm sure she feels very loved. And when her time comes, and you've had some time to think, maybe you will decide to rescue another kitty from a shelter or rescue program. I know first hand how many animals need good homes. One of them will steal your heart and you'll be a kitty mama for another 16 years or more.
