Please DO NOT blame dear self,IT IS THE DRUGS.
No matter how bad you feel,it does NOT originate
from you. It will be an enormous achievement if
you can get free of them,but if not,it is STILL not
your fault. These are powerful drugs,and really
should not be prescribed,but they save time,and
therefore money.You need all the compassion you
can muster for self; if interested,here is book for
same: "Self-Compassion" by Kristen Neff.