I'm not sure if I'm putting my emotions where they belong yet. I don't know... As far as my anger, I have found that I am unable to experience it without acting it out-- slamming things, throwing something, stomping my feet like a child, engaging in SI, etc. I understand that when I do this, my anger is not where it belongs. I get angry at T. I used to be unable to express it to him. Now I tell him, "I am pissed off at you. I don't want to f***ing talk to you about this right now." Is that putting it where it belongs? I'm not sure... I still act out my anger. I guess maybe it's in limbo right now...?
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